when i first came to Melbourne, i thought to myself this would be a fresh start but nothing actually is fresh as the past no matter how much you try to leave it behind, it still comes haunting. But somehow, I am learning, this is the time that i should learn to grow up and finally make my own decisions.
i am always undecided about everything. well, i have decided to come here and take the risk in hope of an internal transfer.
so from that starting point, i have chosen my path in this chapter of my life.
sadly, old habits die hard. and i have to constantly remind myself of all my mistakes and try to seal my mouth and my emotions from the past up and throw it far far away.
i am not ready people, but it is time for me to step out of my comfort zone which is a zone of indecisiveness, pleasing others, weak, unsatisfied and the many skeletons in the closet. everyone has them and no one is perfect.
But nothing is impossible. it is time to decide and no matter what, not weaken as i usually do.
it is time for me to embrace life. a life my parents have given to me to live to the fullest. do not hold back and just accept and move forward.
hugs, i would like to thank my daddy for always emailing and calling me, snoopy for always being there for me and making me see that life is not that hard, eejit, PIC, bie for being there 24/7 and carol, for being my pillar of strength in everything. not forgetting ah ku, ah kim and kaye lin, for making me feel better whenever i'm homesick. and SSSA for emailing me constantly and making me feel that i am not forgotten. =)
i miss everyone, especially the external family members that i grew up with not forgetting those who have played a huge role in my life, even if we are not as close as before, but your friendship is always treasured and the memories not lost.
i want to thank God and everyone for the life i have and i hope that someday i will stop dissappointing and annoying people, and finally grow up.
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