Merdeka Eve

What is this feeling that i cannot put a word to.. family. what is family? what is love? what are relationships? they are words, words with meanings that are distorted - twisted and turned into whatever feels and goes your way.

Reality? this is reality. Do you know, who loves you the most? who thinks of you and puts you right up there with the stars? If you do.. good on you :) i am glad that you've got it, treasure it and smile.

Its half an hour before Independence Day, but its no big deal is it? except for people to go out and party maybe, celebrate.. do you know what you're celebrating? or is it just another public holiday. i sit here, wondering, if everything is worth it, what is worth it? who is worth it?

feeling alone with people around. i guess its a curse.

for when God made the world

He made everyone and everything

and left it to us to decide what to do with our home

He left behind stories and simple guidelines

Love is the simplest of them all

but today,

it seems the hardest to feel, the hardest to find, the easiest to lose.

an empty shell is what most people are

commodified

from every hair on our head to the tips of our toes

the blesses feeling, the emotions attached to love

jaded, tainted, loose, misused

May there be people who know love

who feel love

and who never need to feel this darkness

For i will never wish it upon even my worst nightmares.

Stone cold with the warmness fading inside

Take it all and I shall let You, my Father, have the last word.

I have done no purposeful wrong

Have given everything I have

Have taken as little as I can

I do not forget that I have unintentionally hurt

I do not forget those who have supported me through this years

Father,

May I join you one day to do earthly good

for the peoples of this world.

Take away all feeling of pain

Leave the memories of the pains

I shall carry them with me as reminders

of the human that I am.